Time Management, Goals, Wishes.

I will be 100% surprised if anyone actually reads these silly ramblings of mine. More of a personal diary/journal thing.

Here is a list of things I'm doing and or want to do:
-Working full time. (SO thankful for this)
-Caring for 35-40 animals. (also thankful for this!!)
-Trying to get a non-prof up and running well (stressful at times.. and boring at other times heh)
-Working on getting my art back up to par to feel comfortable with doing commissions, prints, more stickers etc.
-Building blocks for a possible photography business and working on a portfolio for this.
-Build up writing proficiency. Write like a mad lady. Also build up common vocabulary for this.
-Opening up two Etsy shops, one for stickers one for earrings for a little extra cash.
-Selling Scentsy products, a business venture I WILL expand! (I love this)
-Attends Motorcycle races six times from May-September, as well as a banquet party in November.
Attends two reptile expos; sponsors, organizes and promotes Snake Awareness Day in Coos Bay.
Takes reptiles to outreaches at local schools, three/four times a year.
Scholarships, scholarships, scholarships. I want to make something of myself through school.
Saving money for a trip to go to Illinois in October next year.

And all this is kinda... wearing on me. I drew up a little planner to keep my time managed properly and it's helping so much. I want to do it ALL. And... I know that I can't, but I try to do it anyway. There are a few things up there that take priority over others. My job being one since I can't do any of the others without it. My animals are second to everything else. They are my life, my joy, my relaxation and happiness. They keep these little threads that make me up bound together. Especially on long tiring days or when things get a little stressful. They love me without any condition, and come to their little tubs begging me for food or cuddles or... maybe just food. But it's good to feel needed by the things I love.

Eventually some of these things on this list are going to be handed off to someone else, or at least done in a cooperative manner. Some I may drop altogether. I cannot do them all, and do them all the time. And I certainly don't want to spread myself too thin that I tear apart and bust every goal I was working for. Winter is a little less hectic without the motorcycle stuff happening all the time, no more babies hatching. And... the desire to be outside with all the sunshine, little tweety birds, hiking possibilities and all that. That's when I do the indoor-worthy goals; writing, drawing, art, more Scentsy stuff. I love Scentsy btw. Love it. Gets me right out in the middle of socializing, something that's always been a little hard for me.

I know once school comes I am going to be extremely pressed. I know this!! I'll only be going part time, so I'm working extremely hard to get my little side-businesses up and running before I get school going for me. You don't get nearly as much funding to cover books, tuition etc if you're only going part-time. If I can do that, and get a little extra money to keep school afloat, go to Illinois and still live... Then that would be amazing. I have some awesome plans for geckos in the upcoming years--and they really are great, so I'm hoping I won't have to shell out as much of my personal funds for vet visits, food, supplies etc if I am able to find great homes for babies that come out of those plans. So far, everyone has been extremely enthusiastic when learning about those plans. I hope it continues when babies start popping up. This year has been a mad dash for everyone wanting cave gecko babies, so I don't see those plans slowing down. At least for the next four or five years since they are beginning to become more popular and more folks will be working with them.

My relationship with writing has been a huge part of my life since I was about eleven. I used to spend hours and hours and hours writing little stories, big stories, any stories and did this more than anything else. I was a cooped up kid, so I guess that had something to do with it. I remember my mother writing always, so that was probably another factor. At the time I wanted to be just like her. Writing was a gift that I got from her side of the family. Although, regrettably the last six or seven years I've let my practice dwindle down to nothing. I haven't written anything in ages. Although it's still much better than my creative writing used to be, it's also suffered tremendously since I've been out of practice. Such a shame. If I had kept on it, perhaps I'd be a great writer by now. It's a huge regret of mine, and I plan to amend it.

Gosh. It has been so long since I've picked up my stylus and really worked at it. So long since I've done a portrait or a realism drawing. And art... is not like riding a bike. You just lose it if you don't use it. Sure I can sketch cute little random lizards and reptiles. As long as they're cute and cartoony. I will do it again. This is a goal for me!! I want to do a realism portrait of my one-and-only truest of true loves Yue from Cardcaptor Sakura. (insert uber nerdy geek fangirl status) Ok he's not really a true-love. But I've had a strong fondness for the character since I was twelve. I think by this point, being 25 I always will. It's not goin' away any time soon. That fondness is probably due to all the fanfiction I wrote and read when I was having big issues growing up. It was the only thing I had to turn to when things were bad.

So. GOAL: Practice a few realism portraits. Practice some animal realism portraits. Paint a realism portrait of Yue. And.. re-learn all those Photoshop shortcuts I used to know.

My personal goals for Scentsy, my stickers and earring shops is just to eventually be able to work from home. Who wouldn't want to do that? Although I am not putting all my eggs in one basket, so to speak with any of those things, I do hope they work well and in the very least bring in a little bit extra to loosen a few tight ends, (Which Scentsy is already doing!!!) and in the most, allow me to be free of having to work for someone else. To be self-reliant.

I don't see these goals happening for a few years. But I'm workin' on it!! :) I also have a few things in the back of my head as far as what business adventures I get in to play. I would L-O-V-E to be a vet tech (schooling to do this), but if another successful business opportunity comes my way I'm gonna take it by the horns and SHOOT for it. I have one in mind, but--that will just stay back there hiding behind current goals until a few other things enfold with that venture. If all comes out to play in my favor, I may just not go to school in the traditional college sense. All just depends.

Phew, I've got that all out on paper now. :) Perhaps this little journal will help me see things a little more clearly. To attain these goals and see where I want to go, what to do next, where I've gone and how much farther I can go. Here's to success! :)